Liberation and Taking Charge

So last night....well early this morning maybe around 2ish or so, I was watching Under the Tuscan Sun. I thought it was a good movie but in the midst of it for some reason I felt really really good. I felt like I had some revealation of how I want my life to be. I want to be able to walk around and be me. To not have to hide a huge part of my life from my family. I just want to be liberated from my life of solitude.

So I've been thinking about how to to reach my goal which doesn't neccessarily mean retired at age 30 with loads of money. Let me first tell you what one of my goals is. Ultimately I want to have a masters in Music Composition. My primary instrument will be handbells and I want to work as a Film Scorer. Thats what I want to persue and along with finding a partner that makes me happy and my family accepting who I am.

But now to work up to that. I definitely need to be in school but do I enroll in Open University at East Bay or do I wait until spring semester at DVC. East Bay cost 10 times as much as DVC and DVC offers the proper music classes that I could use when I transfer to Berklee College of Music. So the logical explanation is to go to DVC and I think that is what I'm going to do. I'm gonna work all fall and winter and start school in January. I have ample time to reapply and start off finally on the track that I want to take. So basically I'm excited and ready to take charge of my life.

I would love to write more but I'm on a schedule.